the Feeling

It's happening again.

 That helpless feeling of being totally out of control, raw, and vulnerable,

like being naked in front of a thousand onlookers

The rooms in my house are jeering at me as I walk through,
screaming to me to rescue them from clutter and dirt

I forsake all actions pertaining to myself and bounce from child to child and room to room

like a frantic ping-pong ball.

At the end of the day I feel fragile and wasted...

body, mind and spirit

This is an attack from the enemy, a futile attempt to derail my plans for time spent alone with my King

and plans for time spent in God's word with my kids

I will keep trying, Truth will prevail

With my Father's help, 

I will replace a spirit of chaos and discontent

with

order and peace

I WILL rise above the earthly cacophony and forge ahead with the plans laid out for me and my family

Jeremiah 29:11-14

"For I know the plans I have for you", declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you a hope and a future.  Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you.  You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.  I will be found by you," declares the Lord,"and will bring you back from captivity.  I will gather you from all the nations and places where I have banished you," declares the Lord, "and will bring you back from the place from which I carried you into exile."